God keeps silence ,It neither hears nor listens to our prayers .Otherwise terrible catastrophes, starvation ,sufferings, injustice, cruelty,despair, homicides and suicides , especially suicides would not exist.It is just because god is an abstract concept as well as its so called love. Actually, It’s time to quit praying and beginning to help people who are around us . That is a real challenge .It is time to replace religion by more rational humanism .Religion disconnects us from the other people .I never felt yourself so lonely as at the mass. There is no reason to think that without religion we will lose the main human being aspects such as morals which can be attained by the understanding of ethics .As to eternal life It is clear that only science can give us the opportunity to live longer or may be even eternally. If all believers used their mental energy for studying the process of the apoptosis (programmed cell death) rather than for the prayers we would resolve that scientific and the most important problem of our humankind much sooner.

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Filed under: Religion

I am a real dreamer and now I think it does harm me.Three years elapsed yet but there is no any advancement in my life.That is because of my dream.The dream derives me the real, actual life.Normally , every sane person has so-called normal life attributes .I mean love , money, well-paid and interesting job,entertainment,friends and , of course , dreams. If you ask me what I have in my life I’ll say to you nothing except my dream and I’m unhappy due to that fact.I ask myself why to persue the dream when the life , a great gift which will be never given you twice , pass by you. Why to hope that it might be possible the destiny will give me the chance to achive my dream.Hoping so I venture not to find out what means to live really and there will be a real drama if my dream won’t come true even at the end of my life. It is just a bull shit.No one needs you , everyone is indeffirent to you.My present living state opened my eyes at this world .Never one help you.No god , no friends , no relatives .NOBODY!!! Everyone does not care a fig. Finally , I will undersatnd that the dream does not worth being the whole life .Of course, It’s necessary to dream , to fly, to hope, to wait , to believe but if that’s all what you can It does harm and hurts me.So don’t dream but make it to come true.

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Filed under: Epiphany

I’ll never forget you, the Irish language,
You are so alive ,although your ages elapsed,
Your soudns are full of the Celtic powerful magic,
which makes to live you for ever ,perhaps.

Tags: ages, celtic, elapse, for ever, irish language, magic, powerful, souds, to live
Filed under: Poetry

Suicide:
taboo or right?
Let us ask what is life?
A gift or devil’s bribe?

Tags: bribe, devil, gift, life, right, suicide, taboo
Filed under: Poetry

Yes,I told you let’s break our chains
Why to decieve each other?
It’s coming soon my autumn rains
I don’t want to see you,any more, my pseudobrothers!

Tags: autumn, break, chains, decieve, each other, pseudobrothers, rains, why
Filed under: Poetry

A lot of us who has ever read the Bible know a story about a certain man named Ananias and his wife who sold their possesion and when Ananias came to the apostles to give the smaller part of the their money Peter said to him why he lied about the real price of their possession.I think that he lied because the early christians were in a trouble situation.They could be killed, or rubbed , etc ,so this couple decided to spare some money for the future ,because they could think that their church could be destroyed and their apostles could be prisoned, and thus they could lose their money.But Peter didn’t want to understand that.Instead he began to speak to Ananias that he lied to both the Holy Spirit and God .I wonder why did Peter think that the money of this unhappy man and his wife is so important for who created this world ,humans,nature ,devil ,etc. The end of the story is awesome. Both man and his wife were died or one could assume fairly that they were just killed by Peter’s people to keep in the fear the rest of the people .Like the Bible tells us : ” Great fear came on the whole assembly and on all who heard these things . By the hands of the apostles many signs and wonders were done among the people” I think not for free of charge these so called signs and wonders were done. Peter and his people achieved their goal. It’s immposible for me to believe that Ananias and his wife died due to the Holy Spirit like the Bible told us .The Holy Spirit is love and mercy.It can’ t be related to the humans like Peter whose field of interests includes money only.Peter said : ” You lied not to humans but to both the Holy Spirit and God” Did he decide that he personified himself both of them ? Even Jesus said : ” Why do you call me good ? , no one good but God alone ” ( Luke,18 :18-19) .All this is not so amazing because the church and its priesthood always tried to gain a benefit form their perish . This example can illustrate it very clearly.

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Filed under: non-Bible

I hate the hot summer weather.I never go out in such weather.Especially It’s difficult to tolerate
summer nights.You can’t fell asleep when your body burns. It’s awesome! Only an ice shower saves me.I take it
several times per day.How do some people work under the scorching heat? I really want to live in one of the Northern
European countries such as Ireland or Iceland.Nevertheless I was born here I dislike this place.I do not
feel myself as at home .It’s my pet peeve! But I will never give up my attempts to get out from here.I will never let the guys
from the adjustment team to force me to change my plans.

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Filed under: Idiosyncrasy

When I was 18 years old I loved a girl.Her name was Anna.Our relationships were stopped because of me ,my foolish arrogance.
I couldn’t forgive her words ,I didn’t feel sorry for mine and I didn’t want to conciliate with her.So she went to study
 to Russia . The 9 years elapsed but I couldn’t forget her  and recently I found her at one of the social networks.
When I saw her  my heart had leaped forward and banged against the sternum and asked to be let out . It’s been   amazing to realize that everything was
 still alive , I felt the same. We began to socialize and I found out that she get married several years ago and they
have a 2.5 year old child.It’s too late for me to hope that some time we will be together.
 I understood what a fool I was and what could make me happy , this girl and our mutual child
could make happy.I was an immature young man to know that.May be it’s just my justification.

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Filed under: Epiphany

Yesterday I watched the film “Smart people” I liked it and I’d like to convey  some thoughts about one moment in that film.
It’s about one English teacher who teaches English literature and writes a book.His wife  died long ago but he has a 17 years
 old daughter.He meets a woman ,she likes him and the relationships start between them.He finished his book, found a
 publisher.This book was called “You can’t read” (I laughed for a long time) . His publisher invited him and his woman
 at the restaurant to celebrate the issue of the book .He comes at home and is saying his woman: “Hi,honey,they agreed
 to publish my book ,although they significantly edited it but any way.” “Fine” his woman’s answering.”They invited us at
 the restaurant in order to celebrate ” “You promised to go with me somewhere tonight ” , “Yes, but I can’t refuse my
 publisher ,you know ” “Who  am I for you?” ,” Please honey ,just put  your evening dress on ” No, I’have got a headache ,
you have to go without me”. Here we go again.Their relationships were terminated because of such a mere trifle!.Unbelievable!
 This is an adult woman! Moreover , he came to her with the excuses . I think that he would excuse untill his death in front of this
 egoistic woman who would  think about youself only all their mutual life .

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Filed under: Love and friendship

I try  to live with loneliness,
without letters, without calls
to all my friends,to all my cronies
without lie about our roles

and this is honestly so nice
to feel yourself so freely
and finally to recognize
that everything has its own price,
its own days  ,its own nights…

Tags: calls, cronies, days, friends, honestly, letters, lie, loneliness, nights, price, roles, to feel, try
Filed under: Poetry