I had no idea what I should put on my first post so decided that I should probably let my writing do the talking. The extract below is from ‘A Week in May 1940′ – the first book in The Cat & The Nightingale Saga. Based on the diaries and conversations of Ted and Brenda it tells the story of their war. Although it is based in fact there is a certain amount of fiction hence it is published under ‘historical fiction’.
Prologue – End of May 1940
Strangely enough it was the silence that woke him again, the deathly quiet that still
seemed so out of place that it bought him back to full consciousness in a split
second leaving him momentarily confused as to where he was. Then the memories
came crowding back: a kaleidoscope of smoke and flames, a cacophony of noise as
earth shattering explosions mingled with incomprehensible screaming and men
crying out for loved ones. He closed his eyes tighter as he tried to block out
the horror but this only intensified the flashbacks making him groan loudly,
his head twisting from side to side as he sought desperately to dislodge the
nightmarish images that were plaguing him.
‘Shut up over there. We’re trying to sleep’ the disembodied voice was not one he
recognised but why should he. He was no longer among friends, only strangers
whose experiences happened to have coincided with his. But at least the voice
had shattered the images and bought him back into the present, a present that
was strangely devoid of sound or signs of life.
Now fully awake his eyes quickly accustomed themselves to the lack of light and he looked
round at the dark silhouettes that surrounded him. Despite the proximity of so
many other men he suddenly felt very much alone and his spirits sank even
lower. It was cold in the field, the grass was damp and he found himself
shivering, whether from cold or fear he was no longer sure. At least when the
mortars were falling and the gunfire was raging all around he had been too busy
surviving to be really frightened. But now it was all over his thoughts had
room to breathe. Now it was quiet he could hear the nagging voice in his head
giving substance to all the fears he had successfully ignored during the past
few days.
He looked around guiltily as if his unspoken thoughts had been heard by the other men,
but they all seemed to be sleeping. He could even hear snoring, a sound so
normal and so out of place that he almost smiled, almost but not quite.
He was hungry, painfully so and he wondered when or even if they would be fed. Maybe
he should just count his blessings and be grateful that he was still alive. He
would at least have a chance to live, to go home to his family and the woman he
loved, unlike so many of his friends whose lifeless bodies littered the
streets, dunes and fields of Calais. The rumours that they would be shot if
they surrendered had proved groundless, but he still couldn’t relax all the
time there was the fear of not knowing where they were going and what was to
happen to them. As his thoughts raced ahead to the unknown the German soldier’s
casual threat of sending him to a salt mine hurtled into his mind and his heart
began to race.
Fortunately a sharp pain in the calf muscle of his left leg broke into his thoughts,
bringing him abruptly back to the present. Without thinking he kicked out
wildly in the hope of easing the cramp that was now working its way
relentlessly up his leg.
‘Oy what the hell do you think you’re doing?’ the voice spoke almost at the same
instant that his foot made contact with the body of the man laying next to him.
‘Sorry mate, cramp’ Ted whispered hurriedly, not wanting to annoy anyone else. His mind
was now firmly back in the present, his demons safely packed away in the dark
recess of his mind.
‘Hmmp’ the man grunted and instantly went back to sleep leaving Ted watching him
enviously. Now his eyes had adjusted to the darkness properly he could see more
clearly the thousands of bodies spread out across the fields, many of them
huddled up against the hedges to protect against the chill of the spring night.
He could also just about make out the soldiers guarding them, their silhouettes
etched clearly against the night sky. If he looked hard enough he could even
see plumes of smoke rising in thin white columns as the soldiers huddling round
their vehicles smoking and if he listened hard enough he could hear their
guttural voices and the occasional burst of subdued laughter. Ted licked his
dry, cracked lips wishing he too could smoke, but he had no cigarettes left and
in any case he had nothing to light it with even if he had somehow managed to
save one. Licking his lips had reminded him of how thirsty he was and he wished
he had some water left, the need for a drink now overtaking his craving for a
cigarette.
His thoughts turned to his family and he wondered what they were doing now. And
Brenda? Was she thinking about him? Was she too looking up at the star filled
night sky wondering about him? He smiled ruefully, he had no idea what time it
was but it must be quite late so she was probably asleep in bed. This thought
was somehow calming and for the first time in several days he relaxed slightly.
But his mind seemed determined to give him no peace as within seconds the
cataclysmic events of the past weeks flooded into his thoughts again.
‘So that’s it’ he thought ‘All that fighting, all those lives lost and it had all been for nothing. Calais had fallen anyway and the Germans had reached the coast. How long before they crossed the channel? How long before his family faced the wrath of the mighty Hun? Would he ever see any of them again? The idea of his family having to face the kinds of
horrors he had witnessed made his stomach churn.
Despairingly his thoughts turned back to Brenda. How would she survive without him to
protect her? And then, almost immediately, they took a different turn. Would
she wait for him, however long it took, or would she forget him and find
comfort with a German soldier? As soon as that thought entered his head he
realised how absurd he was being. And then he smiled, the first real smile in
days, as just remembering her sweet innocent face had suddenly given him back
his courage. He would return; however long it took, whatever he had to do, he
would survive and he would go home.